AND I LIVE FOR THE FUCKING WEEKENDS.

oh gosh, monday's a bitch. its damn mood-killer. well. school was as boring as hell. i am tired. sick of studying. had to present during mrs rams class, and she keeps asking me so many questions, and asks so much. haha. well, i skipped math and had a 3 and a half hour break well spent at the library. mr lee also didnt come (bless the heavens), and econs vanished. so didnt really have much lessons today. pe sucked, 2.4. tired to type anymore.

well, i only want the weekends, I LIVE FOR THEM. school sucks.

CAN'T STOP.

had a good time last night. in the afternoon i went to study with grace at her place, since she couldn't leave the house cause of her eye (no dirty thoughts you bastards.) max, her dog is very cute. after that i left for home, slacked around bathed and changed and headed to church. amy asked me to come early, to help out or something, and i came early for shit. there was nothing to do and i was surrounded by people which i totally do not click with. so i grabbed an umbrella and left to eat prata by myself. it was better than being stuck there. well. we attended the baptism mass for a while (i emphasize, a while.) then me damian adam ambrose and his friend franko left for eskibar@holland v. very cool place. also in the literal sense. ambrose's friends were there, made some new friends, real friendly cool guys. we opened a bottle of absolute, cause smirnoff was out. it was good still. had nice drinks, nice company, and nice soccer to watch at a nice place. although, i was seriously engulfed in smoke the whole time. you have no idea how much they smoke. haha. we played this game in the cold room, which is a part of the bar which is totally made out of ice. we all had to put our hands on the bar table, which is made outta ice. and the first guy who cant take it, has to drink. haha. had fun. damian and wayne lost a round each. haha. its fucking pain when you put it there for damn long. it goes numb. haha. its a fun game. well after that we left for clark quay to meet al and her friends and kevin to drink. there was alot of complications. and it was kinda fucked for a while, but in the end we ended at sahara. another slack place. there was drinks once again, and this time some shesha ( i dont know how ot spell it). adam got high. haha. had fun there too. after everything we left and i cabbed home with al and her friend cindy. well. had a real good time. nice to have good fun in the midst of the hectic life in jc. maybe this should be a weekly thing. well i am fucking proud of myself. i totally fought off the strong temptation to smoke and do shesha. but with my strong will, i didnt. woohoo. OH YES JESUS LOVES ME.

well. today i went to mass. ate at conrad hotel for lunch. oysters and lobsters, yeah baby. was stuffed to the max. went home, did one econs essay, and it was soccer with the chs boys. haha. was fun. nice to see them all again. had fun playing soccer. june we will go back to cat high for a wild night out i hope. haha. well. its soccer next week again with timos friends, field soccer 11 on 11.

back to fucking school tomorrow. fucking sian. hope next weekend will be fun too.

GOOD FRIDAY?

well well it is good friday today. haha. for you guys who dont know what it is. its the day jesus died for all of us. woke up happily at 130pm today, mass was at 3. it was an extremely long mass, like damn long. 2hrs plus. and there was alot of kneeling and standing. during the mass, grace's eye problem got really bad. it looked bad. emergency 911. when the mass ended i went with her to SGH to find out what the problem was. she was in real big pain. it looked damn bad. the SGH is damn slow la. we went to the emergency block, and like it was damn slow. i cant imagine a person with an immediate emergency turning up. he would have like died like 8 times before he could meet the doctor. had to wait for about 1 and a half hours before we could see the doctor. using this really cool machine thingaling, he found out the problem. there were many tiny abrasions on her left eye, caused by contact lens. gotta suck. she got some meds and she was looking much better. i was relieved. she was scared she would go blind. so good news, grace is not going to be one eye blind (: well, that shows that contacts suck. well i am thankful i have perfect eyesight.

sorry yixiang, jiayi, and lydia for pangsehing.

after emergency 911, my dad picked me from the hospital. ta pau-ed curry rice and came home.

THOSE WERE THE DAYS.

today was the last day before our long weekend. school was as usual. just that in gp. you could say, it was something different. my gp totally sucks, and she has very boring lessons. i really hope something happens that change teacher, or i get pushed into accelerated program, or she suddenly becomes a remarkable teacher. cause i really want an a for gp. and i am forced to count on her. compared, to mr randy (my first three months teacher), her lessons are totally not fruitful/engaging/interesting at all. they are boring and pointless in fact. i have learned, nothing. no discussions on issues, no presentations blah blah. well. since her lesson was so boring. i decided to piss her off and bring about some laughter in the class. so i played dumb, gave her stupid answers to her questions. like i answered her question with words from the question. i kept on doing it till she got ticked and told me off. i didnt really hear what she was saying. well. then once, this guy. ahmad, or azul or some shit. said "wah funny sia" it a fucking sarcastic manner, after i said some stupid comments. i supposed he was ticked off because i denied him his "learning experience" or something. i was quite pissed at it and really wanted to whack him. but taking into consideration my future, and fighting = getting expelled, and i dont want that. well. maybe next week la, ill just disturb him and find trouble with him first, and maybe a fight might start. let me describe this stupid bastard to you. he is a malay guy, he looks like a nerd (seriously big time) and he looks abit gay. his cheeks are hugely populated with red pimples, and his face is damn red. he apparently has a stupid mouth, and something needs to be done. if people make comments he will always have something to say.

well i have a plan for him. i think i shall disturb him since he offended me like that which was totally uncalled for, cant you just laugh at the fucking joke and shut your trap? well. since he is a fucking bastard, it leaves me no choice, but to laugh at him cause of his red face. got many things to laugh about it. like. how come your face so red ah? your cheeks tomato fields ah, can grow tomatoes? i think today you are having a multiple cropping, since is so fucking red today. i think ah, if you really serious about growing the tomatoes, you just rub some fertilizer or your fathers shit on your face, and maybe those little baby rotten tomatoes on your face, can grow into big juicy ones. yep thats it. i am looking forward to saying it to him.

okay, away from the topic of red-faced ahmad. after school i went to macs with yixiang aza and cynthia. we chatted for abit, then i left for home. bathed, changed, and left to meet vanessa ll jane sherman and celine at j8. chatted for awhile then vanessa sherman celine left. then the 3 of us chatted even more then i had to go. it was nice, to catch up abit. then after that i left to meet jiayi saylay mc lydia timo sirhan for dinner. we ate at pizza hut and talked for quite a while. we were talking about ghost stories and stuff. haha. jiayi was scared so she just listened to her ipod. haha. then we left after that. lydia was scared to go home alone. no one was free to accompany her. well, had a good time talking and stuff. then after that, i headed to dxo to drink with grace damian alessa ambrose andrew and his friend. the drinks are cheap there. well, the sad thing is that we got busted. they took some of our ics and photocopied it or something. then we finished all the drinks and left. it killed the mood, the fucking bouncer was damn kaopeh. after that, damian was a little bit loopy, haha. ambrose also. well. after that i sent grace home, and went home in a cab, i was abit scared of walking that stupid long road alone, after hearing the ghost stories. the uncle let me have a ride for 4 bucks. haha. ah well. quite a fun day!

and ahmad is a tomato.

FOR ALL THESE TIMES.

school was good today. slack. best day in the week. had math consultation which helped me understand summation much better. econs lecture was cut in half by mr lees bad temper. its funny how he always gets angry every time. and he walks in a circle around the lecture, but walking out, and coming in the other way. haha. after that was a waste of time at pw. and then schools out bitches. had cooking club. its damn slack. i think i can get exco. HAHA. there are only 3 boys. me joe and quanjun. haha. we surely in exco. haha. played some stupid dough game then me joe and grace left.

after that i went to meet my good old og7 and old sa pals. played pool. its really nice to see them all again. but today it wasnt like as fun as last time. maybe cause not everyones here and the new people just feel different. its not that they suck or something its just wierd. i dont really know them. so its wierd. well. i really miss the 1st 3 months in sa. the life i lived, the environment, and the times i have had with my og there. there seemed to be no worries and everyday was so relaxed. i enjoy the times we've had, chilling at the mattress, chatting at the cafe, playing bridge snapjack assasin at the tac, slacking at the gallery, playing soccer with everyone, folding hearts at the gallery, skipping a whole day of lessons so we can hang out together, going to school just to have fun with no worries, skipping school so we would hang out, touching johns botak head, skipping tutorials with timo and dae, going to macs and climbing over the fence, mahjong madness at ll's and colleens, mahjong at vanessas park, pool, cycling at east coast, queuing for donuts, prank calls, going out together, the bbq at sarinas place. i have had memories that i really miss. i have made friends that i feel attached to. its quite sad that there is no more of this life. the fairy tale is over. its funny how i can make such great friends in the period of 3 months. and i feel so attached to them that its so different in sa without some of them. at least some of them are still here but its just not the same. i would turn back time to relive my first 3 months if i could. i had great time. although i kinda like my class now but i still miss those times badly. i hope that all my friends i've made will not drift away, because i don't let go of friends easily. i will always remember the memories i've had and the friends i've made. its really been a hell of a great time, my first 3 months. og 7 and a 07. i'm really going to miss the fuck out of it.


back to fucking life. the serious studies and the pressure of jc is starting to press on me now.


i cant imagine if grace wasnt here in sa with me. i think i'd die.

i really miss my secondary school friends too. the brothers i have made in the land of green shorts and poky metal buttons. all those great times and memories, those times of trouble and havok, the times of what youth is really all about, the soccer, the times we've chilled, the drinks, and of course the wild nights out. i kind of miss secondary school life, the environment, the teachers, the friends. the routine the the daily life we used to have. we cut queues, played soccer, smashed things, busted lockers, sprayed extinguishers, shook vending machines, got in trouble, broke things, been rude to teachers, pissed them off, broke into school at night, the times where rules meant so little to us. we were 4-7. we were the wildest boys they had. the life for a 4-7 wild boy, i miss indeed. hope to meet up with my 4-7 brothers soon for some soccer, and hopefully another break into school for new memories. (and videos)

THEY'RE GONNA CLEAN UP YOUR LOOKS, WITH ALL THE LIES AND THE BOOKS.

well. another stereotypical day in school. its tutorial lecture tutorial lecture. so much. okay from 1st 3 months till now. for history. i know SHIT about it. nothing. zilch, kosong. i am scared. i have so much to catch up for history and i am so lazy to even start. well. i am worrying more and more whether i will succeed in jc. i havent had a wake up call yet. ah fuck. well. today at history tutorial it was quite funny. kaijie and zengwei copied my work. and that question answer was wrong. then when yixiang read it out. it sounded funny. so they laughed. then kaijie never stop. so he got punished. face the wall or something. after class my yoong talked to them. one part i over heard it was quite funny.

"if you want to step on my toes, i will crush your toes." hahaha. i imagined him like. one day you accidentally step on his leg and he just stomps yours. haha. mr yoong is a good teacher. but he is not a man to be jiggled with. haha. i dont want to be his enemy on be on his "radar screen" hes a good teacher but he can make life tough for you if he hates you.

after school i had half price waffles with grace. at gelare. they make nice waffles and ice cream. then we went to kino where we read magazines and stuff for free before we left for home.

well. og outing tmr! havent got to see my good old og7 in awhile.

MESMERISE, TAKE IT IN.

well its the monday fucking blues. today was a rather good day though. mrs ram didnt come so we had a damn long break cause some of us skipped math lecture. there was still studying and work though. pe was a fucking 10 rounds which turned out not to be so bad! i wasnt really that tired cause we could jog at our own pace. instead of being confined to a certain time. well. it was a long day today. after everything, yixiang, jia yi, lydia and i went to macs to slack. joel also joined us for a while. had a good chat with them. and no, i am not like mr bean -.-

well, i am starting to feel sick of this jc life. like the studying and shit. i am really quite tired of it. well i dont think poly would be good for me too. so i'll have to stick with it. won't it be great to win toto, 50 million. and i can quit life. live on my winnings for 30 years with a luxurious lifestyle, and just die in my sleep. this is not the singaporean dream, but this is abel's dream.

why cant we be like australia? welfare state. government pays for your shit, you slack at home and enjoy. maybe if i become prime minister. oh yea i can see it now. the glitz, the glamour, and me on tv in 3 different languages for the national day rally. me waving to the crowd on national day. oh yea i can see it now.

(mr lee kuan yew, if you read this, don't arrest me or something. your cool man. just like lim bo seng.)


i also fear i will have great trouble balancing my time in jc.

oh well, work is calling on me and i have to fucking have to pick up. its a call i am forced to answer. the BURNS of the singapore education system.

man, i need a wild night out again with my secondary buddies to destress. hope to meet up with you guys soon.

EVEN YOUR IMAGINARY FRIENDS DIDN'T WANT TO PLAY WITH YOU WHEN YOU WERE A KID.

well. the weekends have come to an end. woke up late and was late for mass. today's palm sunday, so the gospel was like 7 pages long. it was so long i was tired from standing up. after that ate and good old hooked on heads. where they serve curry fish head and chinese dishes. damn full. my family of 3 eats eight dishes. while this family of 5 next to us ate 5. haha. well after that i went home to do econs and then headed out to meet grace for a while before i went to grandmas. usual grandmas place routine, slack, talk, eat, go home. fuck la its monday again. thinking about it makes you want to scream fuck sia out loud.

econs is really sucko fucko, taking up alot of time and effort. i still have another essay to write. fuck. i am tired.